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Edges of Knowledge


2005-07-25  Monday  11:05pm cc
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As aggravated as I can get at my least mistake;
as sharply as my inability to be perfect/ irks me,
I would not want to have a chip implanted in me
that would make me "perfect".  Where there is
no challenge when it comes to improving one's
ways of doing, there is no joy.
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However, because I have so many ailments,
I might accept the implantation of a medical chip.

2005-07-26  Tuesday  7:51pm cc
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Most significant time today:  7:32pm dc.
Had gone to drr, and shortly thereafter
the phone rang.  I would not have 
answered it, but it is easy to get to now
because a while back I found a way to
get it closer to the drr.  The caller was
J. D., whom I have been thinking of
nearly every day for an even longer
while.  I wanted to call him, but I 
could not summon/ his last name.
During our conversation, I revealed 
something about me which moved
him to say . . . in parting.
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. . .
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--after 9pm--
On the radio the Milwaukee Symphony is
playing Brahm's Symphony #4.  It is one
of those works I relate to right from its
first notes, even if I do not have the musical
memory that would allow me to remember them.

2005-07-27  Wednesday  11:49pm cc
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Yesterday I meant to mention that it was ADA day,
meaning that on July 26th, 1990, the Americans
with Disabilities Act was signed; but I never quite
got to it.
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Today was a busy enough day, but the next
2 days are likely to be busier.  Tomorrow I
will be getting a third bone density scan.
It's been a while since the second scan.
Friday I need to see one of my case managers
regarding an upcoming [see new day]  --12:00am cc--

2005-07-28  Thursday  12:02am cc
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sanity session with a clinical psychologist.
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Last had a bone density scan (bds) as Shands Main
on 19FEB04.  Today at Shands Main I had another.

2008-08-01  Monday  9:45am cc
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I began my computer day at 0:32am dc.
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Decided about a year ago--I'm not really sure--to place 
all my writings in one large volume, but have been finding it
difficult to decide on a title for that volume.  This morning--
while slowly thinking through my major daily prayer--my
thoughts opened to my last night with Janice, and my one
contact, and my last words.  Just as I did not know I would
be visiting her twice that day, I did not know she would pass
that night, nor did I know I would inexplicably be gently
moving my cursor from the bottom left of its screen to the
middle top/  close upon/ the time she passed.  Placing my 
left hand on her forehead was my one attempt-to-communicate
touch, and saying "good night, Janice" concurrently/ my last
words.  As to my volume, among the titles I have considered
are:
      Who Am I?
and
      Everything Wants to Fall on the Floor.
This morning I decided I would name 
my mysterious opus:
      Good Night, Janice.

2005-08-06  Friday  9:47pm cc
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9:41pm dc  -  This is the day that Janice made/ what with
my coming to read "Bridge Over Troubled Water" because
of Bill Beckett and his closing his program, "The Caravan".
with Led Zeppelin's "Kashmir", which I found and read at
SongFacts.com, and which led me to their "Stairway
to Heaven" which I also read there; and then to S & G's
"Bridge . . ." which I also read there; and understood why/
Janice so loved it/ as I, for the first time, really read it,
my life otherwise being usually too noisy for me to care to
really read/ any song.
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You know, Forty-One, if the numbers tonight are
trying to communicate, 9 means September, the month . . .
Janice [and I] got engaged.
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[ 2008-07-10 note:
    US Highway 41 is the major north-south highway 
    that passes just west of my hometown. ]

2005-08-11  Thursday  10:26pm dc
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Am revising Rooted Sky offline.

2005-08-19  Friday  12:51pm dc
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At last
I am becoming the hermit
I have always
wanted to be.

2005-08-27  Saturday  11"58pm cc
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Thank You, Lord,
for having the tallow tree's dead limb be
ready for plucking.
It was/ as You know/ a bit tricky,
but I did manage to pull it down
without causing too much damage.

2005-08-29  Monday   11:11pm dc
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At 64, I am a self-displaced Wisconsin poet.

2005-09-05  Monday  Labor Day  9:41pm dc
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While looking for something else over the last
several days, I came across--in a school notebook--
an essay I apparently began on 04SEP1985.  I do
not have the time to enter it here now, but I will
give its title:  (Poetry): "Some Thoughts About
Poetry from a Fledgling Seeker of Word Magic"

2005-09-09  Friday  11:01pm dc
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"Hermetics" definition today.

2005-0-15  Thursday  8:11pm dc
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Over at Tripod, my year-to-year "Brian's Brain"
is my . . . [journal].  Here, my "Edges of Knowledge"
unplanned autobiography is.
[ 2008-07-10 note:  Here is ThirdAge. ]
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I am abruptly again, however, leaving here.
My mind has been--by tonight's StarDate.org
program--made curious about the life of Sol
and of other stars.

2005-09-16  Friday  11:31pm cc
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Goin'nuts agin as I usually do when I get too stressed.
This spirit of mine is just too wound up, too like a 
knotted ball of yarn, too like a spinning beast of
yearning. . . .

2005-09-18  Sunday  9:53pm cc
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If every little thing that isn't perfect
gets to you, then the only way to find
peace is summoning up the courage to:
kill perfection.

2005-09-20  Tuesday  8:06pm dc
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For the last 2 days now I've not gone out
into the yard.  Perhaps tomorrow.  I am
sure that meanwhile the weeds are laughing.

2005-09-27  Tuesday  4:00pm dc
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To hell with time;
to hell with perfection.
They have done more
to keep me stressed
than anything else
I can think of;
and yet,
not being a natural genius,
yea, dumb as I am--
nay, perhaps because
dumb as I am--
I find it is
not possible
for me to cease battling
with unyielding time;
for me to cease wanting
untouchable perfection.

2005-10-14  Friday  9:38pm dc
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Hadn't had a mosquito in here for quite some while,
but yesterday--one at a time as usual--got in here,
the last one when my lunch arrived.  I killed each
of the first 3, but I do not know if I ever killed
the 4th one.
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I don't know if it's the Keppra I'm taking, or what,
but all of a sudden I have been consistently hitting
the wrong keys on my keyboard, especially the
specialized ones.
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[ 2008-07-10 note:  That Keppra remark is interesting
    in that I am still on Keppra and that this year I seem
    to be having more problems/ hitting the/ right keys. ]

2005-10-23  Sunday  7:54pm
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The other day I found a small but scary spider
spinning a web in this drr's sink.
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[ 2008-07-10 note:  Recently I have killed at least
    six different kinds of spiders in this apartment. ]     



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Brian A. J. Salchert    2008-07-10    ekua19