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Edges of Knowledge


Thursday 2001-02-15     6:12pm
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God save me.


Tuesday 2001-04-03     5:12pm
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If there is a way,
a right way
for me to go,
let me find it.


Tuesday 2001-04-10
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Find me, oh Lord,
Lost as I am.

Find me, oh Lord;
rescue this lamb.

In the fields,
In the yards,
In the streams,

Find me, oh Lord.
Find me, oh Lord.
Make wise my dreams.


Friday 2001-06-08
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Reality.
Reality, Brian.
Do you know what it is?


Sunday 2001-07-01     4:55pm
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Thank You, God, for every moment of my life;
but I simply cannot make it as a worthwhile human
in this current fast-paced world.
Every time I am under pressure in a business environment
I find I am almost always unable to make right decisions.
Actually, my ability to make right decisions
is in general markedly weak.
---
Wisdom: it is as if that gift for me
              is only mine in a dream.
---
Therefore, God, since it appears that
if I have a passion for anything,
it is a passion for writing;
so writing is what I am going to
concentrate on.
I realize that even in so doing
I may be wasting my time,
may be making another poor decision;
but, You tell me, what else can I do?


Wednesday 2001-07-04     12:32pm
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All the horrid errors I have made.
Just how many are there?
And are they all forgivable?


Thursday 2001-07-05     11:53am
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God, what a serendipitous morning You provided me
at Mainstreet Chevrolet while my '98 Metro LSI
was getting its 7500-mile checkup/ what with the
presence of the blue convertible Corvair there
on the showroom floor to immediately remind me
of that day long ago when I was one of several
in Jack F's Corvair ripping along at 110mph
on the highway east of Lake Winnebago with the
lake flies plastering the windshield and the lot
of us totally amazed we made it to our destination;
and then with the terminal presence of the salesman
to whom I (as I had hoped to do) related that
incident in my life, and then spoke to about
facts pertinent to me current situation, and then
from whom I received some valuable advice
regarding my attempt to secure disability status;
and then with the surprise presence of two
former neighbors--Nick and Frances (though I
could not recall her name)--sitting on a bench
when I went back outside to wait for my auto,
and with whom I then also sat and there conversed!


Thursday 2001-07-12     5:05pm
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I want to create in my life a place where,
using the intelligence and talents I have been given,
I can deepen my intelligence and uncover new talents,
and thereby secure sustenance and find fulfillment.
Does this mean I am going to set aside those talents
which I believe are my central talents?  No.
*
The healings I want to occur are the healings
I have been praying to the Holy Spirit for:
the healings of my spirit, my mind, my heart.
*
The situations I want to change are:
my current desperate financial state,
my constant feeling of -10 worth,
and my continuing inability to make wise choices.

*
For the source of the self-examing above
see Patricia Gift's interview of Gary Quinn at
www.OneSpirit.com
and see also Gary Quinn's book,
May the Angels Be with You.


Friday 2001-07-27     11:54am
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I am as I am.  Yet who I am I do not know.


Friday 2001-08-03     9:27am
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It may be, Lord,
that not any of my "creations"
will be accorded the status:
worthy of remembering; but
You know and I know that
such is far less important than
the manner in which I live
each moment I am given, the 
worthiness of my love during
those moments.


Tuesday 2001-09-11     6:25pm
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In my efforts to be more responsible,
I, over a number of years,
proved myself to be more irresponsible
because I failed to sufficiently understand
who I am,
and therefore made many foolish choices
instead of many wise choices;
and so destroyed
what little solvency I did have,
and so further weakened
my mental instability,
and so placed sharper stresses
upon my spirit.
.......

The twin towers of the World Trade Center
are no more,
and a portion of the Pentagon
is no more;
but those losses are nothing
compared to even one of/
the human lives/
no longer among us.


Thursday 2001-10-04     2:16pm
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It is 11:11, and the full moon

Blessed Trinity,
make me to care about Janice
without getting upset at her;
make me to care about life
without getting upset.
Make me to find joy
in caring.
                                10-31-01 BAS

(&, while on WUFT-FM's Night Bridge, as if magically,
                                             George Winston with
                                                    "Give Me Your Pains")

                                                                 Brian Salchert


Friday 2001-10-12     4:04pm
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The Alexander Technique (the importance of the mind and the body
                                           working in consort with each other)
www.alexandertechnique.com/articles/spirituality
- - -
1.  Ego formation in Western Civilization
     (the separation of the mind from the body and 
      the ascendancy of the mind over the body)
2.  One's mental abilities
     and physical ailments
3.  One's personality traits
     and the need to cope with life's stresses
4.  Fear of insufficiency
     no matter how concertedly one strives
5.  Joy
     and the fullness of one's spirit


Monday 2001-10-29     1:09pm
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10/28/01
   As to perfection, Jesus promotes it strongly;
but I, no matter how strongly I desire to be
perfect, do not expect to ever be perfect
because I lack the necessary attributes.  Oh, I
have/ at times come close/ in ultimately
insignificant ways such as (if I remember 
correctly) my twice bowling a 279.  Notably,'
though, unhappily, on the negative side, is
my annoying penchant for voicing my displeasure
when some thing aggravates me--and some thing does
exceedingly often aggravate me.  Such self-pity!
Such false pride!  As if, as one close to me says,
I think I am perfect and therefore must be
exempt from making any errors, I, who have made
far more grievous errors (choices) than most.
          Teach me, Jesus, to cultivate
          silence, sincerity, simplicity.


Wednesday 2001-11-07     10:30am
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The other day it occurred to me
that often when I become angry
I immediately blame
some one or some thing 
when indeed it is I
who am at fault.
- - -
(Deep psychological wounds
 are extremely difficult to heal.)


Tuesday 2001-11-13     around 10am
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O Blessed Virgin,
what ever am I going to do?
I am so tightly wound.
Every mishap /
every interruption
ticks me tighter.
Each day/ I am replacing
one or more springs.

Remember/ how often I've said:
If I had a brain, it would kill me?

Please sue for peace in me.


Friday 2001-12-28     3:09pm
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Guardian,
      I am such a dolt,
      such a wretched underachiever,
                                    angel.

Be happy
in the Lord?
Rejoice
in the Lord?
Maybe for a second,
                    a minute;
or if I am lucky,
                    an hour or so.

I so need to meet the challenges,
God in His wisdom
allows me to face.

Certainly,
you and God
(sometimes directly and sometimes not)
have numerous times
saved me:
allowed this body
to continue on,
this mind,
this heart,
this spirit.

Angel,
      thank you for what
      you have done for me
      and for what you are doing
      as I stumble through
      my darknesses,
                    guardian.


Monday 2001-12-31     2pm
-
 New Year's Eve

What matters is
how each day
we meet the challenges
which come our way.

Therefore I
(so quicly astray)
moment on moment,
for right choosing, pray.


                    Brian Salchert
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Brian A. J. Salchert