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2005-12-26  Monday  4:55pm dc
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Though I, because of my eclectic ways,
even though I/ have made comments
(over my almost 65 years) in response to
various situations or direct questions,
do not ever expect to be/ among those
who/ are able to be online bloggers, I,
in early Decenber of 2000, did begin an
online journal--which continues to be
sporadically maintained--here at ThirdAge.

2005-12-31  Saturday  8:06pm dc
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About my insanities:
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1) Paranoia
    Yes, but targeted.
Right now, the 2 new residents
in the home just west of mine.
Though they have not been
directly/ nasty to me, I do
not trust them: especially
the shorter one.  
~ [01.01.06  2:02pm dc  Sunday ~
Also, they have [a] light-brown puppy with
partially-asymmetrical white markings,
making it exceptional enough/ it seems to me it
could be a show dog.  It is a pit bull.
I have not seen a leash for it.]
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2) Narcissism
    Yes, but usually not overtly.
Without it, my INFP(?) personality would be some other.
It is what drives me to consistently create:
with words and number in particular.
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3) Passive/Perfectionist-Aggressive
    Yes, but situationally.
I am an epileptic:
frontal lobe and generalized.
However, I also have a low testosterone malady,
the cause of which is yet to be determined.
My GP decided I should be examined by
some endorinologists.  I have visited them once,
have had blood drawn to test certain relevant activities
in my body, and have been scheduled to visit them again.
I am pleased my doctor directed me to them,
and I am pleased the lead doctor I am seeing
wants to know what is causing my malady.
[ 2008-07-14 note:  It turned out I apparently
    did not have low testosterone. ]
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4) Anger
    Yes, but it is a seething "I rate" condition, mostly.
I know I was not born with the natural intelligence--
unless my early head injuries, along with whatever else,
took such intelligence away from me--
to easily achieve, or achieve at all, what I wish to.
So persistence has become/ a must for me:
which may not be a bad condition.
If you feel moved to, see what President Coolidge
had to say about persistence.
See also my read Tripod page 
about anger, about being irate.
  Not surprisingly, though,
numerous other lackings/ rouse angers in me.
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5) Inferiority complex
    Yes, but if it is found my emotional immaturity
    is largely due to something wrong physically,
    I would accept it, and go from there.
[01-01-06  12:09pm dc  ~  Example:
~ Otherwise, here are three Britishers:
Shakespeare, Newton, Keats.
Millions of others then, from every
place on Earth.  See next. ~]
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6) Delusions of Grandeur
    Yes, but I do possess a sense of humor,
    quirky as it is, and perhaps at times too self-degrading.
[01.01.06  11:55am dc  ~  Example:
~ Sometimes when reading through an explanation of
an abstract idea, i will suddenly say to myself:
"Don't confuse me."  To which I will
answer myself:  "With what?" ~]

2006-01-01  Sunday  10:48am dc
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It is, yes, a new year; but I am still an
all-too-easily-agaitated dreaming spirit.
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1) Empathy
    Yes, though both less and more than pleases me.
~ On the less end, it is my straight-out sins of omission
which/ are my most egregious acts.
~ On the more end, it is my over-the-top acts of--
perceived by me--kindness// which are among my stupidest.
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2) [2008-07-14: If there is a "2", I know not where it is.]

2006-01-03  Tuesday  10:27pm dc
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This night I learned of/ an old copyright law
with devastating consequences: a law which is
a perfect example of why so many governmental
decisions are not for the common good.
Do I overstate?  Perhaps.
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This morning I learned from a certain Case Manager
of mine:  I am in the "pipeline".  Such a/ glorious gift/
it seems to be; and yet I wonder:
Can God possibly be in there/ with me?
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It is closing in on 11pm.
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Nothing.  Just the Penn State / Florida State
football game.
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As I am not feeling well, I am going to bed.

2006-01-30  Monday  12:55am cc
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If we cannot have an atrium,
perhaps we can have an exedra.



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Brian A. J. Salchert    2008-07-14    ekua22