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[ last modified: 2008-10-17 ]


Seminary   (1961/62 Jesuit Novitiate poems)

 Recently I defined myself as "the eclectic nonentity"; 
 and also recently, after a visit to/ my primary doctor, I
 said to a seemingly healthy tall stranger standing in the
 waiting room: "I am a leftover."  The central reason I
 have chosen to share Seminary is: what it reveals
 about me as/ a developing human.  During that time I
 was both in a state of passionate misguided religiosity
 and a state of self-awareness denial.  At this moment,
 when my continuance remains a deepening mystery, 
 my neutered broken-back hollow-bone weak-bladder
 short-circuit-prone dimininshed body breeding a vast
 emptiness, I return to that confusion I was because I
 need to, need to understand it more fully in order to
 help me determine where/ I go from here.  As I/ have
 often revealed, my life has been marked by numerous
 mystical events.  Whoever/ it is I am, was supposed 
 to be, or yet will be given the op/por/tunities to be, my
 going back to that time prior to the mystical day of my 
 going forth from that Jesuit complex in Minnesota/ is
 essential.  The day I left/ a teacher Jesuit came upon me
 in one of the walkways outside the large chapel where
 Mass was being celebrated.  After asking me what is
 equal to asking: "Whither/ goest thou?": he told me to
 kneel, and he gave me a blessing.  Being/ the being I am,
 I accepted his blessing as a sign from the Holy Spirit that
 a different mission thereafter/ would be mine to fulfill.  In
 some ways I have fulfilled it; in other ways I've turned
 from it.  It is time to put fear aside, and put aside with
 it my obstinate clinging/ to desires to know.  It is time to
 enter the tabernacle of/ beyond-understanding.  I see I
 just countered myself.  Crazy is as crazy does.  Perhaps
 encountering again this Brian who was/ will be a walk
 into/ the tabernacle of/ beyond-understanding.
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 1     Aerual
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 2     Spiriel
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 3     Manuol
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 4     Jesus Bound
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 5     Untainted Ewe
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 6     Ode to the Mid-month
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 7     On the Feast of Saint Agnes
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Sunday February 10, 2008:  Appears I have run out of seminary poems 
with dates on them.  Therefore, if I continue this project, it will be with
reminiscences.
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 The Society of Jesus in the United States


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Brian A. J. Salchert