Autobio Tally 2 [ 2008-01-17 Note: It is 5:30 PM and I've discovered count errors. I know it's silly of me to think it matters, but. . . . ] Why am I counting my poems, ditties, muttobs again? Most likely it's an order obsession. It isn't to boast. This is count2 because at the end of April I struggled through a first count. Here's an e-whip to there. If I do one of these every 3 or 4 months, I should be able to do each more quickly. - Interlude: I've been reading translations of poems by Robert Bly, John Knoepfle, and James Wright from a book edited and with a new preface by Robert Bly. Neruda & Vallejo: Selected Poems is its title. In it is also an interview of Neruda by Robert Bly which occurred on June 12, 1966, in New York: "The Lamb and the Pinecone" wherein Neruda recounts a mystical event in his life. The book was published by Beacon Press · Boston in 1993. Spanish texts are on the even-numbered pages and the English translations on the odd-numbered pages. One of the sonnets in my 1976: in 2006 is to Vallejo. Two days ago, due to my reading the English translations of poems by these poets, four lines (not from that sonnet) entered my consciousness: Death is the only truth worth living. This moment, this moment, this moment, this. And so I shall: scatterings of words, of seeds, of clouds. I am the wind, the chameleon wind. - June 2007 is my latest book of poems and most of my poems posted in this journal since April are in that book (85). See the June 2007 archive. - Now I'll need to do some preparatory work. Will return when I've finished it. It is AM 11:11. It was. - Other archive places to go to are: for "Incantation" - May 10 of 2007 at sw00385jt - for "String of Days" (21 poems) - May 13 of 2007 at sw00388sc - for Prayers in December (33) - May 14 of 2007 at sw00393pindc - for The Undulant Trees entries 9-14 - March 16 of 2007 at sw00266utc (there are 14 poems in these 6 entries) - for Venturings entries 13-15 - March14 of 2007 at sw00261vc - for Autobio (59, 64, 65) and the 4 lines above - April 15 of 2007 at sw00316ac - 164 (see note above) New count: 85+1 + 21 + 33 + 14 + 3 + 4 = 161 ~ total to date: not 771, but 768 (fool proof) Don't let prejudices you may have prevent you from reading this. ------------------------------------ Brian A. J. Salchert
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Tuesday, July 31, 2007
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Autobio aaahm Poor Baby or (Good Thing!) I live in a universe of one from which I make forays into other universes, perturbing them; but few seem particularly interested, and do not make forays from theirs into mine, so far as I can tell anyway. ------------------------------------ Brian A. J. Salchert
Sunday, July 29, 2007
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Autobio Recess Seems the rain has stopped; the thunderstorm moved on. Let me go see. No, it's still raining, quietly. Three mourning doves are sitting on a wire, and swallows are wisking about as if they didn't give a shit, but they do. So, better watch out, better not cry, better not pout; 'n' this is why: a swallow's gonna shit in your eye. --------------------------------- Brian A. J. Salchert (sort of)
Saturday, July 28, 2007
sw00547math-stirling.nums.and.bicos.at65
09.11.06 Stirling Numbers and Binomial Coefficients Yesterday, in the midst of searching for something else, I found the manilla folder in which I am keeping short mathematical papers I have written. Among these is one wherein I show a way of determining binominal coefficients which is different from the way in general use. I wrote it during the heat of my studying for the GRE. The date on it is September 17, 1983. Alas, my way, while it does work, is merely of some interest, and is not a viable competitor. Nonetheless, being pleased with it, I sent it to a most cordial excellent mathematician in Canada. In his 83:12:07 letter to me/ he* wrote: "Your method for calculating binomial coefficients is more complicated than more usual ways of doing so, but there is some interest, because you have re- discovered the Stirling numbers of the first kind, which crop up all over the place in combinatorial analysis." He also sent a separate sheet to me on which he uses Pascal's Triangle to show me how the Stirling numbers of the first kind operate. To this he provided further explanatory information. I had mentioned Pascal's Triangle in my brief paper, but I did not use it. # Today I went online to learn more about Stirling numbers. I visited two sites. At site one, after going back & forth several times from the triangle depiction of the Stirling numbers of the first kind to the one of the second kind, I suddenly noticed that the natural number summation sequence is integral to both kinds, with the important distinctions that each nnss term in the Stirling numbers of the first kind is preceded by a minus sign, and that the generated terms therein both alternate from negative to positive to negative to positive values and increase in value far more rapidly than do the totally positive terms in the Stirling numbers of the second kind. At site two I found what I always crave: clear examples. The examples presented there illustrate combinations. # Even though my paper does not "merit publication", I've decided to publish it. See entry beneath this one: sw00546math # # Notes: 1. James Stirling was an 18th Century Scottish mathematician. 2. The two triangles showing Stirling numbers of the first kind and Stirling numbers of the second kind are located at: Stirling number 3. The clear combinations examples are at: csuhayward.edu Brian A. J. Salchert
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2007-07-28 notes: [ If you have come to this entry without having read the one above it (sw00547math), please read it, and then return to this one. ] [ Tomorrow will be a better day to enter my--if I am viable tomorrow--1983 "Konen Hart's Chain Method for Determining the Coefficients of a Binomial". ] [ Konen Hart is a pen name I used for the original version of most of what is below. ] # Determining Binomial Coefficients (the complex way) The Method Case in point: 1//12//(12/2 = 6, - 1/2 = 5&1/2, x 12 =) 66// - It is presently Sunday, July 29, 2007. (66 - 12 = 54, 54/3 = 18, + 1/3 = 18&1/3, x 12 =) 220// (220 - 54 = 166, 166/4 = 41&1/2, - 1/4 = 41&1/4, x 12 =) 495// (495 - 166 = 329, 329/5 = 65&4/5, + 1/5 = 66, x 12 =) 792// (792 - 325 = 463, 463/6 = 77&1/6, - 1/6 = 77, x 12 =) 924. # Comments I was led to the above discovery (or creation, if you wish) by a desire to find a method for determining the coefficients of a binomial that was different from (and "better" than) either Pascal's Triangle or the Binomial Theorem. It was a difficult struggle. It continues to be a difficult struggle. But on 9-15-83 the long hours spent investigating the Binomial Theorem and--especially--Pascal's Triangle (and trying this & trying that) resulted in the breakthrough here exemplified. I hope that this is only a beginning. It is the beginning of my understanding of interrelated arithmetic sequences, and of the 2nd and higher orders of arithmetic sequences. Securely locked within each other, they do not allow one easy access. If, for instance, I should want to know only the coefficient for the 7th term of (x + y)¹², my searches have so far revealed to me that merely a minor shortening of the Binomial Theorem will suffice. It happens that—as a large enough Pascal's Triangle will show See this site (title below) inserted in my 1983 paper on 09.29.07— 7 is at the apex of the triangle with the Triangle that it and 12 (column two) and 12's 7th term define. So it's five to the right and five up column two: that is, (11 x 10 x 9 x8 x 7) divided by (2 x 3 x 4 x 5 x 6), and the quotient then multiplied by 12. If you noted the - 1/2, + 1/3, - 1/4, + 1/5, - 1/6 in the chain, you know where the (2 x 3 x 4 x 5 x 6) is coming from.An easy way to remember why comes from knowing that in the going across/ each of these numbers represents the order of the arithmetic sequence the coefficient at that point is a member of. So the coefficient of the 3rd term of a binomial is a member of an arithmetic sequence of the 2nd order, and the others follow in like manner. Another view of the problem proposed here is: ( 1/720 (n-1) (n-2) (n-3) (n-4) (n-5) ) n. The Binomial Theorem definitely is a beautiful gift. In regards, though, to my chain method, I have nothing to say about the beauty of it; but there are a couple to facts about it I found intriguing. The first was—once I found I needed that sequence—the need to alternately minus and plus the fractions required. The second was the need to subtract the power of the binomial/ from the determined coefficient of the 3rd term at the start of determining the coefficient for the 4th term, and then the following corresponding need to subtract the remainder of this first subtraction/ from the determined coefficient of the 4th term at the start of determining the coefficient for the 5th term, etcetera. There is much yet to learn; but whatever the future of this method I've devised, what most now pleases me is that I was able to devise a new viable method at all. Now to finish: //(924 - 465 = 461, 461/7 = 65&6/7, + 1/7 = 66, x 12 =) 792// (792 - 461 = 331, 331/8 = 41&3/8, - 1/8 = 41&1/4, x 12 =) 495// (495 - 331 = 164, 164/9 = 18&2/9, + 1/9 = 18&1/3, x 12 =) 220// (220 - 164 = 56, 56/10 = 5&6/10, - 1/10 = 5&1/2, x 12 =) 66// (66 - 56 = 10, 10/11 = 10/11, + 1/11 = 1, x 12 =) 12// (12 - 10 = 2, 2/12 = 2/12 or 1/6, - 1/12 = 1/12, x 12 =) 1. September 17, 1983 Konen Hart This last: By way of correction, the highest order of arithmetic sequence in a given binomial is that order to which its middle term (or pair of terms) belongs. # Have decided to include an odd-power example. Have chosen (x + y) to the 9th power - 1//9//(9/2= 4&1/2, -1/2 = 4, x 9 =) 36// (36 - 9 = 27, 27/3 = 9, + 1/3= 9&1/3, x 9 =) 84// (84 - 27 = 57, 57/4 = 14&1/4, - 1/4 = 14, x 9 =) 126// (126 - 57 = 69, 69/5 = 13&4/5, + 1/5 = 14, x 9 =) 126// (126 - 69 = 57, 57/6 = 9&1/2, -1/6 = 9&1/3, x 9 =) 84// (84 - 57 = 27, 27/7 = 3&6/7, + 1/7 = 4, x 9 =) 36// (36 - 27 = 9, 9/8 = 1&1/8, - 1/8 = 1, x 9 =) 9// (9 - 9 = 0, 0/9 = 0, + 1/9 = 1/9, x 9 =) 1. - Naturally, I like to think that the algorithm exemplified in both this working out and/ in the prior one/ will prove to be of more than just play value. Obviously, it is a method that does do what it is meant to do. I know, Newton's raised dots did too. Still, I am pleased. * © 2006 Brian Salchert Thinking Lizard - Afternote: This evening (some evening in 2006) and late this morning of July 29, 2007, I visited a hidden-author Pascal's Triangle site at Tripod wherein what are there called Triangular Numbers and Square Numbers (even-odd pairs beginning with 0 and 1) are in fact consecutive terms in the zero-included nnss (natural number summation sequence). About the rows in the Triangle/ this hidden author makes some observations I was quite taken by, the one regarding primality especially; but this author does not point out that these numbers are Bernoulli numbers. Even so, it is worth perusing. Read only. - See also Rasko Jovanovic's World of mathematics and mathforum.org's pascal page # A Collection of Identities and Formulas Involving Binomial Coefficients (title of site linked to in paragraph 2 of Comments above) # Brian A. J. Salchert
Thursday, July 26, 2007
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Autobio On Not Fitting In 2006-09-08 * Two Notes from 7-28-93 (the first is from a younger--not me--Brian) I live every day in my own little world . . . people speak to me but they seem so far away. I don't seem to belong . . . I don't ever seem to fit in . . . then why do I even try when it's not any use. * * * * * * * Exactly. All the great thinkers in their magnificent thoughts and all the great makers in their wondrous inventions didn't fit in, but they created out of what was/ realms that challenge and strengthen and blaze, and things that constantly revitalize each new day; and prod the lot of us who are not so blessed to step beyond our tiny spaces and fit in with them and become more than we ever thought we could possibly be because of and through their rebellious and expansive visions. Me and Asperger's Syndrome: the speech of a 5th grader to his classmates Brian A. J. Salchert
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2006-09-23 Not until several days ago did the locked doors in my consciousness finally open up, allowing me to realize/ it is not writing poems, nor is it writing diaries/journals, nor is it doing mathematical investigations, nor is it attempting to craft a will, nor is it presenting a post-Katrina house design for places which might get flooded so no more owners will get trapped on their roofs, nor is it whatever discipline my brain becomes interested in/ that I could honestly say is my passion; but, rather, that/ my passion is purely the act of creating something, be it no more than a new-use-for-me way to fold a section of toilet tissue. Thinking Page Brian A. J. Salchert
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Autobio Another View of Myself [ The following was posted in a now-dead blog on August 30, 2006. It opens with a quote from an email I had written two days before. ] "I can't get past how different I am from others, but then, I have all these strange diseases/ or aspects of them. I know I came close to being autistic. Yesterday I learned I have some traits found in those with Asperger's Syndrome, a malady linked with autism. On one site the author suggested Einstein and da Vinci were Asperger's candidates. Hmm--! In reading some of my 1976 sonnets again, I did note how frenetic I can be sometimes. Is my epileptic brain to blame? Not sure. I do have tantrums and fit spells. I do get obsessed. I do get overly enchanted with and protective of/ what I/ string together in my space. I can rather easily be, or seem to be, aloof. Numbers fascinate me. Everything fascinates me. Of course, words do. Which brings up . . . the 'Language Poets'. Spent much time late last night . . . reading about them at various online sites. At one site, a site I have not completely gotten through yet, the author said that language poetry 'is not William Logan's cup of tea'. Do not know if William Logan still is, but when I studied under the late Donald Justice at UF in the mid 1980's, Mr. Logan was the head of UF's Creative Writing Program. Maybe you already know. Anyway, one of my sonnets begins: I love the sonnet, so blustery free, laughing in its chains, . . . and ends: I hate the sonnet. Don't you? Its present title is: Day 34. February 3rd - See, even though I in some ways have low self-esteem, I nonetheless am obviously, like an emotional vampire, persistently obsessed with myself." - Post Note: - While I am not always confessional, I never (sic) have been afraid to be; and/ that is because however unpleasant my revealings) I believe/ whatever I reveal about myself is an exploration of the state of being Earth-alive, and so has the potential to be generalized sufficiently to be of service to others. - There is this, however: The WWW/Internet noosphere is not--due to "necessary" ISP censorship--as open as I would prefer it to be. Therefore, even while I censor myself--grudgingly--because I would rather entertain a broader audience than not have an audience at all, the right to free speech is a major unsolved online issue. T U ~ the itsy-bitsy gregarious hermit guy 34: February 3rd at sonnets.org Mental Health Disorders: alphabetical list Brian A. J. Salchert
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Autobio My First AOL Journal appears to have been born in August and killed in September of 2006. Most of it consisted of math entries. The name I chose for that attempt was: brian-salchert-at-65. What entries I reproduce here will be identified by the inclusion of "at65" in each entry's title. Outside of that, each will be coded as is appropriate and is consonant with the codes I am using now. Reproducing one of its math entries will be difficult, but I want to show it. - Entry titles from original journal: Another View of Myself Creativity On Not Fitting In Determining Binomial Coefficients (the complex way) Sterling Numbers and Binomial Coefficients Relationships Between Squares Pascal's Triangle: peculiarly viewed # Brian A. J. Salchert
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
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Opinion Credit The idea of credit is a work of the Devil; and if not the Devil, it is the work of an entity or entities similarly evil. The value of a human being is not proved by her or his credit score. As I have written other places in my passage, these United States may well be "the home of the brave" but they are not "the land of the free" and the presence of the tapeworm of credit is just one of the reasons why. We are taught that the only equitable way one's trustworthiness can be measured is by how well one manages credit. That is a lie. What is worse is that our ruled- by-the-rich government blatantly supports usury. For many years I labored in the hospitality industry, and could tell story after story, but just this one: there are bankers who do not use credit cards. Would that they were the ones who/ made laws. valuable FTC credit information Brian A. J. Salchert
Monday, July 23, 2007
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Regarding This Journal - E17 Entries so far by monthly major interior first and last codes: nov _ p00001aqi - sw00046usabys dec _ sw00047usabys - sw00056usabysc jan _ sw00057jc - sw00137pc feb _ sw00138olp - sw00241aih mar _ sw00242aih - sw00295math apr _ sw00296a - sw00356a may _ sw00357ut - sw00437a jun _ sw00438june - sw00527june jul _ sw00528ut [ These can be used at Google. ] [ Those ending with a "c" are contents entries which may have links to the contents listed. ] Brian A. J. Salchert
Sunday, July 22, 2007
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The Undulant Trees At the Wheel cigarettes chasing bets faces swaying like amulets § Reflection It is almost midnight again Though I've looked at myself continually when the moment comes I know I will be the same Somewhere bells It is Sunday morning again I have written to whomever for thirteen years to show him who I am and who he is and who we are He has hardly seen ~ ~ essay about body-mind set | see especially page 411 | read only ~ Brian A. J. Salchert
Thursday, July 19, 2007
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Regarding This Journal - Searching Sprintedon Hollow E16 [ 2007-07-20 update: Do read what is beneath this update. The most important month in my journal is March of 2007. Today I learned at Google how to access my archives one month at a time; but I have since learned I can only access the month in which my journal began. Don't ask why. Here is what is required: the first 3 sections of my URL demarcated from each other by a / with another / following the third section; then a section named archive (followed by another /); then the year of the archive being sought (followed by a /); then the number of the month being requested. This is how a November 2006 search looks minus the /'s: journals.aol.com thinkinglizard bajs archive 2006 11 So, 5 /'s will be needed. ] Since AOL uses Google Search, whatever works at the latter will also work here. The reason I have here replaced my usual Journal Links Center signifier set with SH sitemap: p00260jlctr is my extra-reason desire to emphasize the p00260jlctr signifier in its set because I also wish to emphasize the value of the like in my Sprintedon Hollow URI-URL signifier sets. As I have noted elsewhere, this journal can be searched (among the many other ways it can be searched) through the use of p00260jlctr alone or any similar SH signifier such as sw00537ut, which is the one just before this entry's sw00538rtj. To repeat further: "sw", which once represented Salchert's Weblog, now represents the "s" in Sprintedon and the "w" in Hollow. If I haven't made an error somewhere, "00538" represents entry 538. The signifier for the entry where this journal's alpha codes are explained is: sw00254rtj wherein the "rtj" represents Regarding This Journal. The "ut" above represents The Undulant Trees which is a book of mostly old poems I have not yet completed. Impediments!: I am, as I normally do, testing and testing; and, alack and alas, I have discovered that AOL does not search this site as Google does.So, here are some test results along with information pertaining to them. - : In AOL's search-this-site mode, tags take precedence; but not really. Best I can figure/ AOL wants a searcher to go to this journal's Journal Links Center or to this journal's archives. One entry I can access three ways; another I cannot access at all. There is no consistency. Besides, getting to 2006 is unnecessarily difficult. - : At Google, though tags are important there also, I am able to use the signifier type shown above. - : I am not in the mood to do so, but I am, therefore, going to return to using tlbajs# signifiers such as tlbajs260; or, whatever signifier or signifier set seems best to use for access here. - : Have concluded I need to change the names of some of my entries. Pooper scooper. By the way, AOL is not "Hell". There are things I can create here I cannot create elsewhere or definitely cannot create as easily elsewhere. Just certain things here are trying me; but if I am anything at all, I am persistent. "How Internet Search Engines Work" by Curt Franklin Brian A. J. Salchert
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
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The Undulant Trees The Answer I am, and am here at this moment because, because, because, because, because from infinity into infinity § Wedding Prayer Let what passes pass well in order that your house may be, peacefully. § FYI Some will call Many will send But in the end You are all So if you attend Attend with care Let not befall Conditions where No one is there Here Comes Everybody Brian A. J. Salchert
Saturday, July 14, 2007
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The Undulant Trees Emblazoned Elm The sky's fair this July late afternoon, the air pulses: living graphs of scintillation; & words elude me/ just as/ all else does. 7-6-84 & 7-2-05 * And Mary had a little prayer. She wasn't good enough to care. She sent the prayer to: Anywhere. 11-3-00 * So, Gods, I became; I tried; I failed. I became again; I tried again; I failed again. I became once more; I tried once more; I failed once more. I want to die; but I/ am not yet dead; therefore, I am; I do; the judge is . . . you. 11-3-00 & 7-2-05 Brian A. J. Salchert
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
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Venturings Channelled Octet If by thine eyes thou dost portend adieu, Let morning's dew be what thou dost intend So that what passeth 'gainst the sun's purview Will be night's tears, and not our/ twining's end. Stay on, sweet pulse, whose measures so entrance I can not move but as/ your music wands Such as commands a star-beholder's glance Enraptured by the spheres of choired beyonds. Shakespeare's Sonnets - at sw00050usabys in December 2006 archives is a 1962 sonnet I wrote to Shakespeare - scroll down to October: Year-day 284 - Brian A. J. Salchert
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
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June 2007 picture of me - bajs photo entry 4 Clicking photo defaults to an error page the hat in this photo has since been thrown away ~ the darkness on the right belongs to a tree trunk ~ i am standing on a platform above Lake Springfield ~ the bag in my left hand is holding me up Brian A. J. Salchert
Monday, July 9, 2007
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[ last modified: 2008-10-17 ] Seminary (1961/62 Jesuit Novitiate poems) Recently I defined myself as "the eclectic nonentity"; and also recently, after a visit to/ my primary doctor, I said to a seemingly healthy tall stranger standing in the waiting room: "I am a leftover." The central reason I have chosen to share Seminary is: what it reveals about me as/ a developing human. During that time I was both in a state of passionate misguided religiosity and a state of self-awareness denial. At this moment, when my continuance remains a deepening mystery, my neutered broken-back hollow-bone weak-bladder short-circuit-prone dimininshed body breeding a vast emptiness, I return to that confusion I was because I need to, need to understand it more fully in order to help me determine where/ I go from here. As I/ have often revealed, my life has been marked by numerous mystical events. Whoever/ it is I am, was supposed to be, or yet will be given the op/por/tunities to be, my going back to that time prior to the mystical day of my going forth from that Jesuit complex in Minnesota/ is essential. The day I left/ a teacher Jesuit came upon me in one of the walkways outside the large chapel where Mass was being celebrated. After asking me what is equal to asking: "Whither/ goest thou?": he told me to kneel, and he gave me a blessing. Being/ the being I am, I accepted his blessing as a sign from the Holy Spirit that a different mission thereafter/ would be mine to fulfill. In some ways I have fulfilled it; in other ways I've turned from it. It is time to put fear aside, and put aside with it my obstinate clinging/ to desires to know. It is time to enter the tabernacle of/ beyond-understanding. I see I just countered myself. Crazy is as crazy does. Perhaps encountering again this Brian who was/ will be a walk into/ the tabernacle of/ beyond-understanding. - - 1 Aerual - 2 Spiriel - 3 Manuol - 4 Jesus Bound - 5 Untainted Ewe - 6 Ode to the Mid-month - 7 On the Feast of Saint Agnes - Sunday February 10, 2008: Appears I have run out of seminary poems with dates on them. Therefore, if I continue this project, it will be with reminiscences. - The Society of Jesus in the United States ~ Brian A. J. Salchert
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* click on photo set to enlarge photo entry 3 Springfield, Missouri Brian A. J. Salchert
Sunday, July 8, 2007
sw00531math-calendar.revision
Math Calendar Revision Have spent considerable hours this weekend investigating aspects of the long-count (baktun) calendar of the astonishing Maya Civilization and its December 21, 2012 end date. Although I could revert to my original plan, my new plan is to simply have a strict 28-day 13-month calendar. Doing this will keep each year at 364 days, and so will force this year to end sooner than it does in the Gregorian Calendar, and thereafter (for too many years to be concerned about) force each year to both begin and end sooner. What to me is of interest in all of this is how my year will compare to the Gregorian year in 2012. If my calculations are correct, the 364th day in my calendar will occur on December 24 in the Gregorian Calendar. Since my calendar's year always begins on a Monday, it always ends on a Sunday. My calendar's mid-week day is Thursday (Thor's Day / the god of thunder's day). Why do I care about these things? Mysteries (the wonders thereof) and mystical synchronicities. sites of interest The Year 2012 Novelty Theory singularity Brian A. J. Salchert
Thursday, July 5, 2007
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Regarding This Journal Internal Changes - - - E15 In spite of certain negatives, the positives here supercede what I have found elsewhere, especially for my creative projects, of which there will be many more, assuming I am granted the time to pursue and complete them. This entry is number 530, and I will not have been here a year until November 2nd passes. - I am shifting my writings about others to a Blogger blog, but what of that is already here will stay here. I know I could begin another journal in AOL space, but I have my reasons for not wanting to. If I ever decide to create a third blog, I will do so in yet another location. There are locations I will not venture into as they are too restrictive. That AOL in not forcing me to focus my journal on a specific topic (to belong to a foreign-to-me group) is the main reason I thought I might try journaling here a second time. That a female AOL representative convinced me significant improvements had been made here is why I did. However anyone or any entity views me, I am my own group. I cannot function in an Internet realm which refuses to sufficiently accommodate me. The end of my days as a viable human has become such a constant concern in my spirit it is as if it is a tangible creature, one that has found a rent-free space inside of me; but I am blessedly alive, and if no one visited my Sprintedon Hollow I could continue creating it in this space, given that this space or something in me did not prevent me from doing so. Besides, at least two of my entries have been linked to: one by a literary site and the other by a technology site. Shortly after I initiated this second journal in AOL space/ I ditched the visitor counter because it counted me as a visitor. There persists in me a wry strain of humor. - 9 of my books of poems are in this journal, plus 2 books which are in progress, plus the poems in my autobio entries. Paul Hoover on the powers of wonder Brian A. J. Salchert
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
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Autobio 6 Lines The 6 lines beneath this note have no title other than the possibililty of letting them be entitled "While Reading a Review" as it was then they came to me. The review was of an anthology of British poets. It may have been written by Andrew Duncan, but I am not sure of that. The online page it is on is identified as ae162, the "ae" meaning Angel Exhaust magazine. I placed three comments from it in the notebook I am presently using. The last is: "The idea that language does anything on its own is poorly founded; the pro- ject of investigating language without investigating people and their behaviour towards each other is short-term and self-defeating." ~ I am a nothing who never was, and never will be. If you want to see what death is, visit me. ~ 1940 Day Lewis-Strong anthology review Search tlrho0006 at Google Blog Search to read my "Prayer on Independence Day". Brian A. J. Salchert
Monday, July 2, 2007
sw00528ut-11.2poems
The Undulant Trees [ Beneath this note are two poems concerning incidents which took place several years apart, and about which I am only partially aware. Both sets of incidents were in mobile home (mo-ho) communities. To my knowledge the events in the first mo-ho community do not relate to those in the second. ] Mo-Ho Community 1's Story That quiet day as I walked toward where the mailboxes were/ on the patio of the long brown mo-ho two young tall blacks held a shorter black upside down. At the patio's far end, seated on a chair, was a white teen who'd been a neighbor of ours. Though I didn't count them, there were in all about seven young blacks, one of whom was the group's sentinel; but no one else was in sight, and I was just passing by. ~ Mo-Ho Community 2's Story 1 On a day I had a need to speak with the manager/ two tall slender guys, one with a basketball, were waiting for something near the office. The basketball guy seemed half black half white, and the other seemed nearly all white. I learned they were going to be living in a mo-ho toward the end of the street which ran north from the mailboxes. 2 A month or so later, just after I'd gotten my mail, a teen black whom I had once met and briefly spoken with and came to know/ some things about, was heading to the corner mo-ho across the street where a friend of his lived. He paid no attention to me; and I, curious, decided to delay my walk home. Once he'd/ alerted his friend, he quickly strode back to his place, which was one or two mo-ho's north of where the new guys lived. As he turned off the street into his yard, he lowered his jeans so far they nearly slid to the bottoms of his yellow/brown boxers. Then I saw that block distant another young black/ facing me. For a moment we scanned each other, and I made/ no move toward him. 3 About two months (or so it seemed) after that/ while I was again conversing with the manager, I was told the two young guys had moved, and had defaulted on their lease. It was either that day or several days later Irevealed to the manager what I suspected had occurred, though I knew what I knew proved nothing. 4 What I did know was that the central figure was a student at a high school I had twice been in because of tropical storms. One evening, while online, I went to that school's web site and did some fruitless searching, but found an error on its home page. Early/ on another day when I was by the office/ I had a chance to speak with that school's student about whom I knew some things, and I did speak with him. I told him of the error on his school's home page. - Little Pieces Brian A. J. Salchert